I haven’t failed yet, but I am failing.

This isn’t a cry for help, nor is this me giving up.

This is me, admitting that I am behind (after being ahead).

 

This week has been particularly taxing and how easy others forget that what is important in their lives, may not be as important in another’s. In past posts I’ve discussed my job as a manager in retail and how often that can get in the way of my writing. Well, this week has been exactly that, but I’ll admit that I let it get between me and writing.

They say the first step to solving a problem, is admitting you have one, right?

My boss is away this week which means I get the fantastic task of stepping into her role which is the role I ultimately want as a store manager. However, this challenge also means I get to do my job as well as her workload. Ultimately, this works out to roughly a 90/10% split. I managed to run around, fix some things, chase up some stuff and keep things running relatively smoothly for operations and staffing without going too far into details. For my job, I managed to coach a few people and fix one of the tools that will save me a load of time going forward while I was on hold sorting out a customer issue.

How did all that work affect my writing? Well, not directly. But trying to do both jobs has been mentally draining as well as physically (I hit 10000 steps generally by midday). So all this week I’ve been coming home, walking dogs and trying to still do my stuff. This leaves me napping during the evening or too tired to write anything worth it. Even today was a full day (a great one though) but mentally I wasn’t 100%. Mix that with the heat and I find myself struggling to create decent scenes, or even write a sentence I don’t hate.

Tonight I wrote 470 words, after a few days on 0. So now my total is 17502 and I’m 2500 words behind. One strong day and I can come back, so long as the days coming up are at least 1700. That being said, I will have to be mentally prepared. I’ll keep you all posted, but how are you folks going?

Hopefully, you’re going better than I am!